He was 29; soon to be 30. Josh was a good looking, happy, outgoing and a very charismatic person. We really had no idea we would lose him to such a tragic ending.
Somehow circumstances got the best of him, and his emotions must have spiralled to a point that he felt the only way out was death. While we often wonder just exactly what drove him to this desperate act; we fear we may never know the truth of
that fateful day. There are many unanswered questions, facts that don't seem right and circumstances that were completely out of the normal. But, since only he has the answers; we chose to remember him for who he was and not dwell on the "whys".
Today I write about this, not to be graphic; but to share the reality of what suicide does to a family. To friends. To co-workers. To those that were somehow a part of some one's life and now are only left with memories.
Josh chose to leave this world sitting in a ravine located in a lonely lava rock bed
in West Idaho Falls area. It was raining that day, and he must have been in a very somber mood as he took his 12gage shot gun (not the typical weapon used in a suicide) and drove his truck out to the chosen spot. A spot that was both serene and beautiful yet at the same time so desolate and lonely; knowing he was about to end his life and forever change the lives of those close to him. Please reach out to those that may be contemplating suicide or that have threatened it. It may not be too late. Our son never expressed his thoughts to us of self harm; but silently he was crying for help. Stop to listen carefully to those around you who may also be doing the same. If one life can be saved from suicide awareness then sharing our story of losing Josh isn't in vain.
God Bless.
Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.
- Anonymous
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.
- Anonymous
